Omg where has the time gone! I cannot believe its mid-April! We have sandals peeking out and pollen storms showing up already. I can’t keep track anymore. My first quarter is usually a whirlwind anyway with both the George’s birthdays in February and early April and I had the nerve to add weddings and event coordination to my already full soaping schedule. I izzzz tired!!! Forgive me. I have finally sat myself down to have a real serious talk about balance.

Check- In

I had to be realistic with myself and figure out how can I sustain everything without sacrificing myself and family in the process. I jotted down some things that are non-negotiables like my family time and home priorities. I have really been slacking in the home projects area, especially if I can close a door on it (please tell me I’m not alone). I really want to make my home more comfortable, organized, and welcoming and it seems like everything else is sucking all my energy instead. In an effort to give hubby more undivided attention, I’ve recently decided to leave my cell phone in the other room on occasion. He may tell you different, but I did make an attempt and that’s what’s really important.

Take Inventory

I then had to really take inventory on how hard I wanted to go with soaping, events, event coordination, my blog, social groups, and all the other distractions I have going on. I needed to look at what I was longing for and figure out a way for it to be added to this circus. I really want to give each area my best self so if I can’t give the appropriate amount of attention to it, it has to go or at least be put on the back burner so those other wants could be added. A lot of the things I do require a good chunk of uninterrupted focused time and lately I have been quite finicky with how I’m spending my time. This forced me to also take a hard look at all the negative time suckers, including people. I have asked myself on a few occasions recently, why am I even bothering? This was a shock to me because I’m usually the one who just goes along and do what I’m supposed to. Well, is it worth my time seems to be the motto these days.

Make Changes

Now that everything is out on the table, I have to pick up only the things I really want to invest in and prioritize them. I really need to put the time in to reorganize my life to regain my balance. I told hubby recently that I feel stifled and unsettled, I did not tell him that it may be coming from the mountain of SHOES in my way as I get in bed each night. I’m not gonna lie, I am not looking forward to organizing my closet and getting rid of clothes and shoes. I would much rather just get a bigger place. As I come to the end of this post, I’m now asking myself if this whole thing was just an overdramatized cry for help with my closet? Nevertheless, I will persevere. If you haven’t heard from me in a few weeks, send help.

Until next time,

-K